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Internet of DOOOOM!

It's funny when you think "Oh, I don't need this internet thing anyway," only to one day check your mail and realize you have a gigabajillion new messages, and none of them are from spammers. It's a good feeling, but it kinda sucks to realize how important the internet has become, especially for communication, and worst of all, how we become addicted to it.
The worst thing about the internet is that it makes us all zombies. Yes, all of us. It manipulates the way we communicate with each other. Less time in the presence of others, and more time alone, in a dark room, staring at a screen for hours. I got rid of AIM because it pissed me off...It shouldn't, it's just a program! I spent many hours on it when I was in high school and a few years after, but then it really became boring. MSN wasn't really considered, but I had a few friends who could only use it through webTV, then others who discovered they could contact me through it. Again, it's fun at first, until you realize that talking to a computer screen deprives the human nature of its social spirit. I feel a bit awkward when I talk to people on the phone, so I try to hang out with people as much as I can.

When the gang first started getting together, it was kind of wierd interacting with all those people I barely spoke to in high school. After while, you start to learn it's not what people talk about that makes a bond grow, but just having that physical interaction and random yet common silliness. It's hard when you meet a stranger, and the more you attempt to know about that stranger, the farther away they become. Or the worst, when those who surround you no longer care about having you as a presence in their life. It doesn't matter what you say, or what kind of interaction that is attempted, those who do not appreciate the presence of others will always push away a great and powerful thing.
I don't care how many miles seperate my friends, family, or those I no longer speak with, I still think about them everyday. I still think about where I have been, what I have said, what I have done. I still keep a journal (both online and in real-life), and I consider my actions before I carry them out. I don't have enough negative energy in my heart to force revenge, nor do I have enough of that negative energy to willingly destroy, hurt, or manipulate the intentions of others. My intervention is usually that of questioning, and if someone doesn't consider what I have to say, then they have no reason to blame me for any bad karma that follows them.
Maybe that is what is so isolating sometimes, that fact that one person can have so much foresight, and it's double the hurt to know something is going to happen, and then actually have it happen, whether it's to a friend or enemy. That's right, feeling hurt for an enemy. That is called compassion boys and girls, maybe more of society should learn how to feel it.
I don't claim to know the future, but I keep my ears to the wind, and my eyes watching. When you do that for so long, you start to recognize patterns, and you start to experience an internal awakening. Yea, it sounds like some Utopian Voodoo bullshit, but if you look at all the nature based cultures around the globe, you'll notice a great similarity. Americans don't seem to understand it, or perhaps, they just ignore it....

On a completely different note, I did attend the Philly convention this weekend, and my client won 2nd place Best Religious tattoo. That was pretty cool, and I guess now I can boost that I am an award-winning artist, lol! Ahh yes, silly emoticons and such. I can't remember what you call 'lol'...I surrrender...
Until next pointless and mindless post...